So, I'm updating my blog with events of the day/week/etc., relating to my emminent gastric bypass surgery. Well, today was hard. I was quite hungry, and while ruminating on the process, outcomes, potential complications, and everything else, it struck me yet again how food is quite possibly the MOST addictive substance known to man(rather like air???). EVERYONE does it! But unlike the aforementioned air, food does cause all sorts of chemical reactions in your body that are extremely hard to overcome. It is unfortunate that being fat is one of the last acceptable prejudices left. Not okay to discriminate against women, ethnicities, disabilities, but that's not the case with fat people. I don't know one single person who has the ability to give up, cold turkey, food. Instead of being able to stop an undesirable behavior/set of chemical reactions, we have to learn to manage it, which is a much more difficult task in my mind...yes, I do have the addicted brain over here, I get that!
I try not to think of myself in terms of fat, but if I don't at least a bit, I'd never recognize problems or try to deal with outcomes of said problems. For me, it is a very elusive line between recognizing issues and blatently beating myself up. My "line" tends to move about a bit.
So, here's my Jennalee Passey food diary: (public accountability is a bi###!!!!)
Breakfast: 1 egg, 1 piece of very good wheat toast, chocolate protien shake 8oz, 1 smll banana.
Lunch: 1 med. apple, salad of Tofu, red leaf lettuce, radish, seasame ginger dressing, green onions, mushrooms, then 2 smll pieces of cheese wrapped in 2 pieces each of roast beef.
Dinner: Salad as above, lovely piece of salmon, 14-16 nuts, 1 6oz cup of yogurt.
Again, lots of water and vitamins when called for.
I only had one small snack in the evening (the nuts). Must NOT do that tommorrow.
My goal for tommorrow is more water, as I don't think I drank as much today as yesterday.
Have a great day!
Jennalee
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Gastric Bypass
Posted by Jennalee at 10:16 PM
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2 comments:
Jenn, I lost a lot of weight one time and I think it was because I was keeping a food journal. So keep up the good work. When I was keeping my food journal on a regular basis it always amazed me how just one M & M is not such a big down until you have to write down every single one you eat. After a while I quite eating stuff like that just because I didn't want to have to write it down or look at it in my food journal! I think you are doing great! I am really proud of you! Keep up the good work!
You rock Jenn! Your honesty and openest amazes me. Most people hide their true feelings. Thank you for sharing them and giving me the courage to be more honest with myself too. I love you!
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