Another Day

I'm sitting at my computer right now thanking my lucky stars for all my friends! I started reading this book I found in the Science section of Barnes and Nobles, ALWAYS a dangerous section for me...stupid, I know! Anyway, this man did TONS of research on loneliness. I wanted to buy the book, but lack of funds, you know! It was so interesting the different things he did, and hypothesis he would work to prove about how humans have this innate and even genetic desire to connect to others. "No man is an island" was pretty right on! I have allowed myself to not be as close to my friends as I would like for LOTS of different reasons, but I am so thankful that they are still there...the mark of true friends...n'est ce'pa? (I think that's right!?) Whew...moving on!

I am starting the process to have gastric bypass surgery. It is a little bit, a whole LOT scary to not only consider, but to even put out there for you to read about. What if I fail...again? I have "concerned" feelings, but I DO want to do this. I think so much negative about myself right now, I am trying to firmly plant myself on the positive side of life. Not only with health changes, but with other changes as well. I know that for anyone trying to change long standing habits is not easy, but I commit to do this. It will take time, will power, the grace of God, and all of your support, even if you aren't here to say anything to me...I know you're there.

I do plan to write about this regularly so come back and share my journey with me! Maybe what I write will help someone...although I tend to think it might only be me that it helps out.